He vowed not to miss the opening takbir, but then became unable to do so due to illness; what is the ruling?

Question:
Peace be upon you, Shaykh. May Allah make us successors to you. Peace be upon you and the mercy of Allah. I am from Bash, may Allah keep you safe. Welcome. Welcome. As per my American [status], I called on the phone, O long-lived one. I have two questions. I made a difficult vow, or rather a light one. When I arrived at the port, I did not want to break the vow, and the illness struck me with fear. And from fear, or from praying for you. Can I have just one minute? May Allah heal you. It was cut off on the television completely so we could hear your call. May Allah heal you. Yes. It was cut off on the television. May Allah heal you. Fine, there is nothing. Or something I do not hear again, I am here now. Please, please, let us hear you from the microphone. May Allah bless you. Yes, O long-lived one, the first question is what I told you: I made a vow that I would not miss the opening takbir. I was a soldier at times, and I used to miss the opening takbir. I vowed that I would not miss the opening takbir, and it became heavy on me. It became so from fear; I used to be afraid of the praying people and afraid of some of the people who are praying. And then I would be here once and there once. Then I stopped, I stopped praying while standing, and now I do not pray in the mosque, meaning I pray at home. I do not know what comes of my prayer at home. Let us read the first one, this is what I said. I vowed not to miss the opening takbir, but I go by car or someone takes me.

Answer:
My brother, my brother, the vow that you not miss the opening takbir is being severe with yourself. It was not befitting for you to do this. But strive to move forward for the prayer and be present for the opening takbir. So if you miss the opening takbir with that cause, there is no blame on you, my brother. Do not be severe with yourself in this matter. Yes.